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Spiritual adventures with Plant Medicine in Peru…Ayahuasca, San Pedro and Kambo!

 

[DISCLAIMER None of this information is suggesting that you should try Ayahuasca, Kambo, San Pedro, hape or any other type of plant or sacred medicine, or that I endorse it in ANY WAY or that I think it’s the only way to develop personally or spiritually. It’s risky and dangerous, ESPECIALLY if you just book on the internet, don’t know the Shamans and/or they even call themselves Shamans. My crew wouldn’t trust anyone doing this in the US or even many in Peru itself, some of the Shamans have been bought off and there is some dodgy stuff going on, DON’T work with anyone with less than 10 YEARS experience, I am also not available to make any recommendations as it’s not my place to do so, I am NOT an expert or a Shaman…PLEASE be VERY careful and considerate to the plant and the traditional people!!! All I share is MY journey and MY experience, MY decisions, because I want to be open with you about what’s really going on in MY world, we’re all on our own journeys! X]

 

It’s Sunday morning and I’m sitting in a cafe in Clovelly, Sydney having brunch and a chai, and wondering how the heck I can sum up what the heck happened in Peru the last 2 weeks (this will be a pretty long post!)…I’m still integrating back into reality and it’s actually much harder than I thought….I feel a bit like i’m on a different planet.

Everything has changed.

Yet nothing has changed….Yet…

I’ve been on another spiritual adventure…and as I wrote that my phone flashed us as 11.11am and it’s the 11th of June! Spooky!

I went to Peru with a group of 20 adventurous entrepreneurs, a little nervous, but with an open heart, ready to embrace whatever happened and surrender into the experience. I knew one person, as i’d met the organizer once…and then randomly bumped a guy I met 2 years ago at a Tony Robbins event…it was kinda funny as the last time I’d actually seen him was 3am, drunk in a Casino…we’ve both had huge spiritual awakenings since then and our priorities have changed big time!! 😉

I met the group in Cusco airport having only just made my connecting flight from LA by running through the airport in San Salvador, spending an interesting 3 hours asleep on a bench in Lima airport and then another 3 hours on a bench in Cusco with my bags wrapped round my arm, as my flight landed at 5.30am and I’m meeting the crew at 9.30am! Oh the glamorous side of this digital nomad adventure!

We all piled into mini buses, where we were accosted by a lady selling Coca leaves for 1 Sol…we welcomed her and stocked up…Coca leaves come from the same plant as Cocaine…there is no drug involved but the locals chew them to help with the effects of altitude and ward off altitude sickness…everything is harder at altitude…just walking up a flight of stairs can feel like a work out and it can even make you nauseous. I remember one time in La Paz, Bolivia, literally getting out of breath just turning over in bed!!! You never know who it’ll effect, often it’s the slimmest, fittest people who suffer the most and and they get even more frustrated at being incapacitated as they’re not used to it. The best cure apart from the coca leaves is copious amounts of water (it’s H2O after all), there was one girl in the back of the van sucking on an Oxygen canister!

Everyone introduced themselves and we set off…2 bus loads of strangers would be getting to know each other VERY well (think deepest darkest fears and insecurities and being at our most vulnerable) in the coming days…they feel closer now than almost anyone else I know…going through something like that together brings you close very quickly!

We arrived in Pisac an hour later, after a quick stop to take some pictures of the view and get an obligatory #alpacaselfie…

Our accomodation was simple, but we were constantly reminded that it was the most luxurious place in town, with hot showers (well some of the time anyway-my first shower ran cold as soon as I put the conditioner in my hair- burr), and very intermittent wifi…if you stood outside near the office!! But i needed a complete break and barely had the energy to take photos never mind think about Instagram!

Our first night, we got introduced to our team of Shamans (who don’t call themselves Shamans, rather Maestros, healers, students of the plants or ceremonialists). Our leader had assembled a dream team of well respected, legitimate, Shamans with between 10 and 40 years of experience, if you EVER decide to give any of this stuff a go I HIGHLY recommend you do your homework and don’t put your soul at risk by working with anyone less qualified or legit. There is a lot of #spiritualtourism going on down there (and all over the world), that’s wrecking the culture and the jungle and you can put yourself if some tricky situations.    

We opened the week and our sacred circle with a Flower ceremony and setting our intentions, a few started to well up already, I knew it was going to be a powerful week…

I was in Peru 10 years ago, I did the whole tour, hiked Machu Picchu, Lake Titicaca, the Amazon jungle, home stay with locals on an island, and although I loved it (except the jungle- I hate bugs and especially spiders) I never thought I’d be back…I’d ‘done Peru’!

I went back to Peru partly out of curiosity, partly a promise, partly to get some clarity, partly a commitment to myself and my clients to become the best version of myself, no matter what it takes! (Oh and partly because my friend saw me during a ‘journey’ she went on two years before and knew she had introduced me to this work…that i’ve been doing for 15 months now!)

I believe it’s my duty to go first, to expand, to let go, to grow, to explore new concepts, to learn, to remember! As I expand my consciousness and my raise my vibration, then everyone around me is lifted higher too.

If I am a leader then I must go first.

One of my fav quotes is ‘you can’t take your clients deeper than you have been able to go yourself’ Rich Litvin.

So I will go to the depths of my soul and the far reaches beyond my comfort zone to be the best leader I can be, and having explored nearly every modality in personal development it was time to remember some Ancient Wisdom and become an even more authentic version of myself.  

If you are a leader, what are you doing to expand and push your comfort zone??  

On the second day, we were told there would be a documentary of our adventure made about Ancient Wisdom in Modern times, although my old hiding tendencies popped up, I knew I had to volunteer, if they needed extra people I was in. As we sat down to film the first part of the interviews it hit me…I had literally put this on my vision board…I wanted to be in the next documentary a bit like Origin, that’s what I’d written, and here i was having effortlessly manifested that exact opportunity…Wow!

They are talking with Netflix and other outlets about it, so we’ll see where it ends up!

I shared my intentions…

To surrender

To let go of anything blocking my health, love or abundance

To get fully into my body

To heal my wounded masculine

To embody my divine feminine

You know… keep it simple for week! 🙂

Intentions are EVERYTHING….

I set an intention for each ceremony…

I set an intention for everything…

Daily

Weekly

Quarterly

Annually

Our second ceremony, was the first with any ‘medicine’.

Before I go any further I want to note…I have NEVER (knowingly) done any drugs, never even smoked a cigarette, and only once got high after accidentally eating 2 hash cookies! (I did however drink myself stupid on a weekly basis during my 20s.)

I DID NOT got to Peru to get high. And funnily enough even though some did, I never really did…

And only a few years ago i thought anyone who did any of this was pretty much off their heads and I would have sworn I’d never have done it!

I don’t do any of this for fun. I pretty much hate every minute of it. It’s not fun. It can be beautiful and profound. But it’s generally hard, painful, uncomfortable, scary and takes a heck of a long time, so patience is a huge factor in this world.   This is not a quick or easy fix. I presume there are easier, cheaper more fun ways to do that!!

Hape is a sacred, powerful, profoundly healing tobacco.

Having never smoked a cigarette, this might seem like an odd choice, but if you go to these type of things you have to go ‘ALL IN’, i’d done it a few times before.

Tobacco gets a bad name, what the West has done to it, has made it cancerous and poisonous. But in it’s purest form it is very healing.

It’s best known for opening your heart, re-aligning your chakras, grounding you, releasing any physical or emotional issues, opens up your third eye, removes entities and improves your spiritual connection and intuition.

We all sit in a circle, bundled up in layers as the temperature started to drop…

I’m about 5 people away from the Shaman, she says she’ll do one round, if anyone wants a second or third serving they can have it. I vow to just try and make it through one, and decide that will be just plenty for a first go!

As she gets closer I watch the others be served, she taps the pipe on each shoulder, the top of their heads and heart, and then fills her pipe, tobacco is blown up each nostril one by one and you must do both sides or it will imbalance your brain!

I watch as the ones before me shudder and the tears roll down their faces…their buckets sit at their feet…just in case…why am I here again?

Just one…I can do one…

She gets to me, I take a deep breath and try to relax…I really don’t want to do it…twenty sets of eyes watch me…I really don’t have a choice.

She blows it up one nostril…I shudder…my head feels like it might explode…it tingles and burns- not in a good way…and the last thing I want is more…I have to have more…if i refuse…they would literally hold me down and force it in…so i decide to surrender and not prolong the agony…shhhhhooop…gah…it’s awful…those first few seconds are the worst…she taps my head and I hold my hands on my heart as the tears roll down my face…why am I doing this again? Then a heat and tingle floods my body, all the way to my toes, I feel a profound sense of love for myself, for my body, for being here, for facing my fears, for getting really uncomfortable…

I lie down, exhausted and open my eyes again only to see the girl that went first getting her second serving, gah, people are having more? Shit! I don’t want more. The girl next to me grimaces and says she doesn’t want more either. I close my eyes and check in. Should i have more? I get a yes! Shit!

The girl on my opposite side refuses more and that would actually be the end of her whole journey. She opted out from the rest of week. That’s another story.

Shhhhooop…gah…burn…shudder…tears…

Other side…

Shhhhooop…gah…burn…shudder…tears…

I am so done…

I lie down again…

I wake up again to see that first girl taking her THIRD dose. Shit.

I close my eyes to check in. No. Phew. I get a No. Amen.

I lie down…

I awake again as the ceremony is coming to a close…

We hug and pull tarot cards…I feel a huge amount of love for everyone,  5 HOURS have passed and our first medicine ceremony is over…patience is a virtue in South America!

We go to eat and swap stories of our first of many experiences,

I slept so well…tomorrow we try the next thing…

As i finish writing this it’s 1.11pm on June 11th…

Are you enjoying the story so far?? Do you think i’m crazy yet? LOL

It’s only Day 3…

My alarm goes off at 5.30am…

We are leaving at 6am and will be fasting until dinner!

I’m apprehensive to say the least. We’ve been told to dress in layers, and bring as much warm clothes and blankets as possible, we’ll be outside all day.

The unknown feels ominous…all i know is we’re going to a mountain to meet Grandfather, San Pedro cactus or Wachuma as it’s also known.

We drive for about 45mins along bumpy roads into the middle of nowhere, we pile out of the mini buses and load up with all our supplies, blankets and firewood, one guy offers to take one of my bags which allows me a free hand, I’m immensely grateful.

We start to walk, we have no idea how far we’re going.

The path starts to get steeper and rockier, I’m sweating already, I’m wearing so many clothes and can’t take anything off as i have nowhere to put it. We stop and gasp for breath, this altitude makes walking so hard. We cross a river and continue on up.

It gets steeper, i’m not in the best shoes, i slip and slide as I scramble up the mountain, and mentally note that getting down without landing on my ass or breaking an ankle will be a challenge, but remember that we’re being protected by Grandfather. I say a silent prayer for all our safety.

We finally (probably only 25mins later) after many stops to catch our breath, come upon a rocky cave with a small ledge (maybe 5ft by 15ft), it looks way too small for all of us to get a seat, 20 of us plus 3 Shamans, and I’m shocked this is our destination, we’re due to be here all day…WTF? I put my bag down in a small corner, with my head half in the cave, I’m convinced it’s full of bats, dust keeps falling on my head and my vertigo makes me feel nauseous,  it’s a pretty sheer drop down…oh God how will I go to the toilet? I decide i’ll hold it all day.

They get all set up and i try and get as comfy as possible. I strip off a bunch of layers and finally allow myself to take in the view, from as far back from the edge as I can…breathe Jo, just breathe.

It’s stunning, we’re in the Sacred Valley, the mountains around us make me feel tiny and insignificant. The light dances and shifts across the valley and I’m awe of where we are.

One of our Shamans starts to beat a drum and sing…she’s announcing our arrival to the spirits and the world below.

Condors soar in the valley below us and the sun beats down. I’m so thirsty, but we’re not allowed to drink for the rest of the day. I say another silent prayer. ‘Please don’t let me die from dehydration or fall off this mountain trying to pee. Please let this journey be gentle.’

The ceremony starts and one by one we go up and kneel before the Shamans, the first guy up is a huge man, he’s an ex stunt man and built like a tank, he’s dressed like he’s ready for battle. (He’s done a recce of the area and given us a safety briefing-just having him there makes me feel safer) they fill what looks like a giant shot glass with a yellowy green liquid, he downs it and they hand him another straight away.

I’m up fourth, kneel before them in the dust and down my glass, just one thankfully. I go back to my little spot and wait until everyone has been served.

Then one by one we each take a spot in the middle of our little ledge share our intentions.

We’re still basically strangers but everyone shares vulnerably, I feel more love and connection to everyone and settle down to see what happens.

I feel nothing, it’s a bit of an anti-climax. I wait…and hour or so passes and nothing.

Then the second round is offered, I look scared and the Shaman asks ‘Are you high?’ No, I reply, she says ‘Second cup for you’. Shit.

Again nothing, but my body betrays me and I need to pee. Ahhh…

Gingerly I stand up, wobble a little and immediately regret it, I tell them where i’m off to and take a few steps down the hill, moments later the giant stunt man is by my side, he’s like a mountain lion and takes my hand and guides me down the mountain to the ‘ladies toilet’ a designated bush (pun intended!) that will protect my dignity. I reemerge a few minutes later and the stunt man is sitting a respectful distance away waiting to help me back up the mountain. I’m relieved and take his hand. He breaks into the Beatles ‘I want to hold your hand’ and delivers me back to the cave. I perch on the edge and take in the scene.

Another lady starts to walk down the hill and the stunt man jumps up and takes her hand.

Then the tears start to roll down my face. I get it. I finally get it.

I am in awe.  In awe of the Divine Masculine. I feel a deep reverence for it.

Grandfather is finally teaching me the lesson I came here for.

Despite teaching about the masculine and feminine in my work, there was still a part of me that needed to heal my relationship to the masculine.

I had been hurt so many times. Taken advantage of so many times. Tried to be someone I wasn’t. I had closed myself off from the masculine to protect myself.

But now I got it. The Divine Masculine literally just wants to be in service to the Divine Feminine. He was there with his gorgeous wife, it was nothing predatory. He literally just wanted to serve and keep us all safe, no woman was going to fall on the way to the toilet on his watch.

I needed to see it in such an obvious way. He was so huge, he could have been terrifying.

But I knew deep down there’s nothing to fear and the Divine Masculine can be pure and loving. He wasn’t just a mountain lion, he had a lion heart. In that moment he represented all men. It was beautiful.   

Those tears started a deep unfurling of emotions and I cried and cried for the next few hours. Other women cried too and we lay on the ground sobbing and holding each other.

As the ceremony closed we again, one by one shared our experiences, everyone was again vulnerable and open, I cried for each person, their pain and releasing was for the collective, men got on their knees and apologised on behalf of all men for the pain they had caused the Divine Feminine, I cried for him, for me, for all of us.

A girl got on her knees and apologised on behalf of the Divine Feminine for emasculating the men, I cried. We all cried.

There was forgiveness and declarations of self love. It was healing. It was beautiful.

We then blessed our water, we shared our water.  

Then the woman sat in a circle around the fruit we had brought. The men surrounded us. We blessed our fruit. We shared our fruit.

We all hugged and one of the Shamans whispered in my ear ‘I feel your liberation coming’. I didn’t know I needed to be liberated, but in that moment I knew he was right- who might I be on the other side?

Feeling exhausted, content and still slightly high, we slowly made our way back down the mountain just before night fall.

Our mini bus made it’s way back to our accommodation, dodging sheep and pigs and stray dogs.

Once back was sat round a campfire and were offered another round of hape. I checked in and despite feeling super fragile, I got a yes. Shit.

As I sat in front of her, I asked her to be gentle, she said she’d serve me like a 9 year old. I’m like, ‘they do this to children!??”

I sat on the grass and allowed the hape to flow through me. An incident from when I was 9 years old that I hadn’t thought of in years came to mind, I threw up, it needed to be processed and healed, I sent love to 9 year old Jo.

Exhausted and emotional I went to bed, a little anxious about the next day.

Meeting Mother

So by now you might have guessed I’m not just in Peru to take Hape and San Pedro!!

Today is the day, we’re going to meet Mother. Mother Ayahuasca.

I’m scared. You can feel the nervous energy in the group.

So far what we’ve done has been pretty mild. Non-hallucinogenic. And that’s my biggest concern. I’ve heard the horror stories and feel a bit nauseous all day.

In the afternoon, we attend an introduction and initiation ceremony with the Shamans and more plants. It’s a talk on what to expect, how to handle things, and a reminder to maintain ‘noble silence’ throughout the ceremony, to allow everyone to be in their own journeys.

We’re given 4 top tips;

*Remember it’s all from love.

*If you think you’re dying, don’t fight it, let it happen.

*If you hear a voice telling you to go to the toilet, even if you don’t need- just go!

*It will pass and the morning will come.

 

This advice strangely makes me feel much better.

We have a couple of hours off to relax and set our intentions, I land on ‘love, wisdom and clarity’ and repeat these words over and over…

We skip dinner and rendezvous at 8pm to again board the mini- buses. We’ve been told it’s happening in an outdoor temple, to bring warm stuff. We’ll be outside all night. It’s June and this is winter in Peru, temperatures are due to drop to zero overnight. Despite being from Scotland, I don’t do well in the cold, I think my blood has thinned from 13+ years living in warmer climates. I’m almost more concerned about freezing all night than the medicine! Several of the worst moments of my life involved being very, very cold for long periods of time.

We travel for about 30mins in the dark along more bumpy roads, there’s a quiet uneasiness in the group, everyone in contemplation of the journey to come. All of my worst moments are running through my head, trying to preempt how bad it could be.

I could have stayed on that bus all night, I didn’t want to arrive, be we did, piling out of the buses with blankets, pillows, wooly hats, thick alpaca ponchos and our buckets.

We walked through the pitch dark, down to the temple. It was a round concrete structure, with a wooden struted canvas roof, open door, and window and a mud floor, The roof had a hole in the middle to allow for a fire in the centre. We each claimed our spots round the edge and I was excited to be met by a reed mat and a long thin piece of foam that acted as a mattress. We also make ourselves acquainted with the ‘dry’ toilets out the back. We’re told this is luxury for a ceremony!!  I’m already freezing.

We get as comfy as possible and sit in the pitch dark waiting for it to start. It becomes more obvious why we’ve been told to wear white, as you can barely see people in the darkness. I’m in black. Doh.

I just about make out a shadow in the darkness…it’s the Shaman making his way round the circle with the Aya. He gets to me and I take the cup and it’s only half a mouthful, I’m grateful for the small serving-but really have nothing to compare it to. I lie under the covers and wait for it to kick in. It will be around 45mins to an hour i’m told.

It’s cold, so cold. I lie in the dark silence…waiting…

After what feels like ages I hear some groaning and someone throwing up…and then some more…I keep waiting…

There’s a loud buzzing in my ears…I jump…then nothing…

A while later I jump again, this time there’s a red light spinning and a siren sounding next to my ear…it’s like an ambulance …waaa….waaa…then this heavy energy, like a steel sheet starts to descend on my whole body, it’s starting to squish me and compress the air out of me…

‘I must be dying’ I think…I’m ridgid…my body turns to cement…I can’t escape even if I want to and I hear the words of warning…’If you think you’re dying, let it happen’. I say ‘let it go, let it go’ over and over and eventually it ends…

I lie waiting for the next installment…expecting it any moment…

When it starts, I’ll sit up…

I listen to the Shamans singing their ancient songs.

I open my eyes and for a moment I wonder if I’m outside, I can see the whole sky. No roof. And a voice tells me… ‘The stars are always there you just don’t chose to see them.’

And the next thing I know I hear a flute and it’s morning.

WTF, was that it? I’m kind of relieved and annoyed at myself for not going and getting a second cup, but I didn’t realise the time. Apart from the dying there was nothing profound. Just cold.

We make our way back to accommodation and everyone is in a stunned silence.

Once back we convene on the grass to get out plant shower. A bucket of freezing cold water infused with plants and flowers, we are to pour it over our heads in the shower. They announce we won’t be having any breakfast today (to respect the flowers), there’s an audible groan. We hadn’t eaten since yesterday lunch time.

After our showers, we met back on the grass for integration and to share our experiences from the night before.

I vow to go for it the next time…luckily we have 3 sittings…

 

Aya #2

When they first presented the schedule each day was pretty choca block, ceremonies, talks, excursions, workshops, etc…and the Aya happens overnight, outside (did I mention it’s Winter in Peru and we’re in the mountains at altitude?) …I was like when are we going to sleep? A very Western question! The answer, whenever you can find a moment in between activities! The reality, hardly at all! And I funnily enough I didn’t really feel like it after our first journey. We had a pretty chilled day and explored the local market and I booked in a massage for after dinner. I slept like a log after that.

The following evening was Aya #2, we had a talk on it all in the morning and some time to journal and set intentions in the afternoon, followed by a beautiful sound healing by some local guys to get us into a good space for the coming journey.

We gathered again around 8pm, this time the feeling was a little lighter, we knew where we were going (the outdoor temple) and roughly what to expect (in terms of set-up and how it worked anyway- you NEVER know what Mother will dish up for you, it’s different every time!), plus it was a cloudy day, so it was a few degrees warmer and I was more prepared. I had 3 pairs of leggings on, 7 layers on top and a new white poncho! Yay!

I was determined this night not to waste the opportunity (i’d been oscillating between beating myself up for only having had one cup on the first ceremony, and trusting that it’s all perfect and Mother knows best!)…so I decided i wasn’t going to lie down at all and I was going to have as much as I could. Warrior Jo was ready!

I also have a great spot in the temple, far away from the door but near the Shamans, so I won’t miss any of the action- or opportunity for more Aya!

It’s pitch dark again and this time the Shamans call us up in groups of 5, this time instead of a big cup, it’s shot glasses, but these are no ordinary shot glasses, they have been soldered with some sort of metal, and don’t even think about getting weird about sharing cups with people, there is no space for Princesses…or basic hygiene concerns…I say a silent prayer to Mother as I know one girl thought she had a cold sore coming on!  We have bigger things to worry about!

After I drink, I go and sit up to wait, it feels like everyone has made the same decision, no one is lying down tonight.

We sit in the dark…waiting, contemplating, meditating…

I was the 2nd last to drink, so when I hear the movements and groans starting i know mine probably isn’t far off…

I wait..

The girl next to me starts to burp…she sets me off…although we’re in Noble silence (no chatting) we acknowledge our synchronised burping!

Since getting deeper into energy work in the higher dimensions, working with Goddess energy, sacred medicines and the Akashic Records my body has been processing energy by burping (ugg!), deep extreme yawning, coughing, crying…and if it’s really bad deep purging…and it’s not just mine…I seem to process the collective pain, my clients and whatever is going on in room. This is something I’m also working on to release, especially if it’s not my responsibility to do so… as an empath this has been a huge part of my coaching journey, learning how to protect myself but the medicine adds a different dimension.

One of the interesting things about Aya, and the group you do it with, are the synchronicities that occur and the collective processing, we weren’t just healing ourselves, but each other and the planet!

And then It comes, almost from nowhere, the purging starts…

I can’t quite explain the taste of Aya, it’s nothing I’ve tasted before, but curiously I could taste it days after in another ceremony…it’s earthy, bitter, a little like wheatgrass but way worse…and when it was coming back up, it felt a bit like the worst hangover in the world, like i’d been doing shots of different liquors all night! But I was stone cold sober.

During the purge, and all night really, I felt pretty neutral, not emotional at all. And almost clear thinking…I decided to get up and have a pee…and empty my bucket…

When I emerged I could see another figure, standing looking at the sky. The temple was surrounded by the most majestic mountains in the Sacred Valley, and I could see these clouds as shining bright green behind them, almost like what i’d imagine the Northern lights to look like, I was awe struck by the beauty, I stood still trying to process where I was and what i was seeing… (the following morning I asked the guy i’d seen if he thought the sky had been green- he said no- that must have been the psychedelic effect!)

I walk back to the temple door, take a deep breath and walk back into the darkness and straight up to get another cup. I kneel in the mud in the dark and wait until they’re ready (the Shipibos are singing their songs to individuals and to Mother to help in their journeys) . He comes over and prays over my cup/shot glass, I down it and go back to my spot.

More burping…

Then it comes  again…the purging ….the girl next to me is doing the same…I feel a deep connection with her…

In between the purges I start to see shapes, they’re neon, rainbow outlines of Sacred symbols against the black sky, a bit like the Nazca lines, plus feathers, birds, people, and when I close my eyes it’s almost kaleidoscopic, swirls and patterns coming in and out, it makes me feel nauseous and I purge again…

When I’m done I decide to repeat my little journey, pee, empty bucket, (this time it’s much darker, it’s brown, the first was kinda yellow, and from my work in Kambo I know the darker it gets the deeper you’re clearing, our emotions, stories and memories are not in our mind but rather deep in our bodies, in the cells…whatever I let go of was deep even though I have no idea what it was!) stare at the stunning sky, take a deep breath and go in for my 3rd cup.

I kneel in the dark and wait…this time there’s a moment of light, they spark a lighter to fill the shot glass without spilling it, I see him in deep prayer over my cup, this time it’s longer, I down it and go back to my spot…

The girl next to me is now curled in a ball and on the other side the girl is having a huge night, she’s been sitting rocking and the Shaman is singing to her and cupping her head. I find out later she was birthing the cosmos from her yoni!

It starts again…my head hardly leaves my bucket, it’s a pretty small bucket and the circumference is probably the same as my head, as I purge I get the strangest sensation that I’m far out of my body, I’m on the edge of space, looking in, and that my bucket is endless, bottomless and i’m observing the whole cosmos from this place. I literally don’t want to take my head out the bucket. (!?)

The Shaman is doing his rounds, he comes to me, blows his plant liquid concoction (something special to them-they work on long dietas with different plants to become at one with the spirit of the plant, e.g. a YEAR of strict dieting, working with plants, mediating and ONLY talking to their Master!!!) on my head, taps my head, and pours a liquid in my hands, I think thisone is Agua de Florida (A cologne used in South America by shamans for cleansing, healing, ritual feeding and flowering.) I love the smell and effect so much I now have my own and use it daily, i actually think i’ll give up perfume completely!

Another Shaman comes round blowing sacred, clearing tobacco smoke in my face. Many smoke the Mapachos, little cigarettes, but i cough way too much so decide not to.

The purging finally ends…this bucket is pretty much black…I get a weird satisfaction from this knowing the releasing was very deep and most likely past life stuff.  

Once the main journeying has finished (for safety reasons) tonight they light a fire in the temple, it’s a welcome sight and ushers in the morning light. I sit up, I still haven’t slept I don’t want to, I watch the flames, mesmerized, and realised that fire isn’t ‘angry or raging’ like it so often gets tarred with, it’s beautiful, warm and just doing exactly as it’s supposed to and just needs a huge amount of respect.

My next realisation, I was still journeying, is that I was a Druid, the scene feels ancient, people sitting in a circle around a fire, cloaked in blankets and ponchos (not a North Face micro fleece or puffy jacket in sight!) it’s so familiar, I have a realisation I’m remembering. Remembering my past life, my ancestry. In January in another ceremony, while working with Merlin, I had the same message and I have been called to revisit sacred stone circles- I will know which ones to go to and here I will receive the download that will be my life’s work. I had no idea he was, according to wiki, probably the last druid, a Celtic Shaman, living in southern Scotland. This will be a whole other adventure and a trip home next year- if you haven’t heard me talk you might not know I’m Scottish!!

As morning dawns, we get up and instead of piling back in the mini-buses, we have a simple breakfast outside by the fire, swap our experiences, integrate and start to work on the land. To give back to the land and owner of the temple and property, we help to clear some land to create a flowerbed and plant a tree. It’s very grounding in every sense of the word.

Forever changed we venture back to our accommodation.

Meet Froggie

The day after the night before we have a reprieve on the intense work and have a day trip to visit some sacred sites, Moray, the original Incan GMO site, where they tested crops (mainly corn) to make them optimal, and then distribute throughout the Incan empire. Next stop was the salt pools and then the best lunch I’ve possibly ever had, after a month of a fairly bland diet and restriction it was the best thing ever!

When we got back I skipped dinner and opted for a seriously early night, I had signed up a seriously early start, my alarm was set for 5.15am. When we arrived in Peru, we got a surprise option of a Kambo ceremony. Kambo is a tree frog poison and the main medicine I’d been working with for the previous 15 months, it one of the things I attribute to my accelerated spiritual awakening. However,  I will give the same DISCLAIMER as I did for Aya. I DO NOT suggest or endorse this medicine. It was introduced to me in a very organic way by a friend and it tends to find you if you’re ready for it.  It’s not fun or easy and again you need to be very careful who you chose to do it with, if you do. It can be dangerous if not respected and worked with in a safe way with an experienced Shaman. It’s actually thought of by some to be more intense than Aya, and many will avoid it altogether. It’s not for the faint hearted. And you should avoid it and Aya, if you do have any heart conditions.

That said it’s an intensely healing, strongly detoxifying, immune boosting medicine. It’s been an honour to have been working with and learning from my Shaman and have been assisting in ceremony with it.

This ceremony has been limited to just 10 of us, we have our last Aya ceremony tonight, doing both in one day is HUGE by any standards, but I really want to experience it with a different server, and we’ve been told the two medicines are really complementary, and doing Kambo will help us in our last Aya journey, I’m all in for this trip and just accept it will be a huge day.

We set off at 6am for the temple again (about 30 mins away), it feels weird to know I will be back again in only a few hours…

Most of the crew are Kambo virgins, just me and one other girl have journeyed with it before, there are some serious nerves going on. I share some of my experience, and the words of wisdom that helped me with my journeys.

We set up camp on half of the temple and our Shaman explains the process and assigns us the order we’ll go in and the amount of dots we’ll each receive. First time men always get their dots on their left shoulder area near their hearts, and women on the left or right ankle, so it travels past and clears our lower chakras. You get fewer dots on your first time to see how you react to the medicine. As you get more used to it the dose can increase and you can begin to have targeted treatments. I’ve had them all over my body, from ankles to centre of my chest, ears and all the way up my back at each chakra. It’s obviously not a competition to see how many dots you can get, but I do get some funny looks and questions from masseurs and when getting a pedicure. Now i can spot other Kambo kids in public, it feels a bit like a tribal marking and a rite of passage! I’ve been told I’m going through an initiation of sorts!

The Shaman asks how many dots I’ve had before and where I want them today.  I’ve done up to 9 dots before and tune into see where I need them, I’ve always done left ankle and only had one dot on my right before, considering that, and how effing cold it is, I don’t want to strip off and sit in my bra for the next 3 hours, I opt to roll up my trouser leg and stay warm.  She tells me i’ll have 7 dots. Considering we have Aya tonight, that feels like PLENTY and I trust her judgement completely.

We start..with no #1, Kambo is delivered very differently to Aya, first you have to quickly down 2-3 litres of water in like 2-3mins just before it’s administered. It’s horrible as you feel full, a bit sick and like you’ll gag if you have another sip, but it’s an important part of the process (during ceremony you have to drink a bit more, but there’s a limit, definately no more than 3.5-4 litres, especially if you aren’t purging it up fully- this is the riskiest part as you have to be careful not to drown yourself!! It’s generally totally fine, just follow the directions of your Shaman, just part of my disclaimer! You can’t OD from Kambo as your body has a shut off point when you reach your limit.

To have it administered you sit before the Shaman and they take the end of an incense stick and burn off small dots of skin, I know I’ve probably lost most of you here…if you don’t already think I’m positively insane already! It doesn’t hurt too much, it stings and you might wince a bit, but if you’ve ever had a bikini wax this is nothing! 😉  They then apply little tiny dots of Kambo, smaller than a pea to the exposed skin…

The first few people are starting to feel the effects and everyone is expected to do some major purging (It can happen from either end!), to get rid of all that water, plus whatever cleansing; physical, emotional or Spiritual that needs to happen.

One of the girls before me gets up to go to the bathroom, we all know we’re not to go alone (just in case you faint, fall and hit your head) but you’re not always thinking in the middle of it and she makes a bid for the door, I jump up and take her arm, I wait for her as she purges and give her water, then help her back into the room, and sit with her as she continues to purge and handing her tissues and water as required. Taking care of her feels good, being in service, plus it takes your mind off your own upcoming journey. As she’s coming out of it, another girl is starting, I sit with her until it’s time for my own journey…

I start to drink my water and already feel ready to purge.

This time as the Shaman creates the dots they were deeper and bigger than any i’ve had before, she accidentally gives me 8 dots not 7, and says, ‘oh looks like you’re supposed to have 8’, I internally wince but trust the process, she applies 8 and then the last one falls off…I’m only supposed to have 7! Phew!

I retake my seat and grab my bucket, from experience i’m quick to process it, some people take ages, the heat runs up from my leg to my head, it feels like your face, head and lips are swelling (because they are- and it can looks like you’re had lip injections for up to 2 days!), it can also feel hard to breathe and if you’re not warned you think your throat will swell and close, the best (and really only) option is to fully centre yourself and breathe, knowing the horrible sensation will pass, panicking won’t help…I do what I usually do at this moment and ask myself what the fcuk i’m doing here and vow to never do it again-this time I mean it!

…it takes a little longer than normal, and i’m willing the purge to come…this moment always signals to me the end will come… Viva…it starts…I purge and purge, I’m sweating, I strip off some layers, I feel like I need to use the bathroom, so i get supported outside, luckily it’s a false alarm, i take some time and come back in…my small bucket can’t handle the volume so i transfer to a second one…someone comes up and blows a huge amount of sage smoke in my face…I purge again…it seems longer and more intense than i can ever remember, uggh…please let it be over…

It finally feels safe to lie down, but for the first time ever I’m overtaken by an intense itching all over my body…I wonder if it’s an allergic reaction, I’ve never seen it happen before (I ask after and it’s not that unusual!) it’s so annoying and i wonder again why I am doing this!?

The rest go after me and one by one come out of it, one poor guy has a really rough time and just can’t purge, the Shaman gives him 2 lots of hape (very strong doses of tobacco up the nose to facilitate purges- it’s worse than normal as it has to be so strong- this happened to me twice before- you want to die) and then even more dots of Kambo…he was put through the ringer.

We start to pack up, i decide to visit the bathroom again but only make it outside, I feel really dizzy and have to sit down in the pathway until it passes…I feel so weak, It takes all the energy i can muster to get back up and gather my stuff and get back up the hill to the bus, a girl takes me arm and guides me up. I’ve never felt so weak or vulnerable. Someone hands me a tiny piece of stale bread, it tastes like the best thing I’ve had in ages, oh the simple things in life!

We get back to our accommodation for lunch, I’m in another world, we all are, I can hardly eat but I know this is my only opportunity before the last Aya tonight as we never have dinner before the ceremony, and I need the strength.

Aya #3

It’s already been a long day…

After lunch I lie on the grass in the sun for an hour on my own in a vain attempt to process what the heck just happened and then head to bed where I stay until about 9pm, I manage a hot shower and try and gather all my will to just get on the bus. Tonight we’re starting late and the buses take off at 10pm. A few people comment on how well I look, I assume it’s the froggie facelift in effect as I feel like sh!t and very fragile!

This is it, last time at the temple, it feels weird, glad it’s almost over but already knowing I’ll miss it, i know that sounds insane, especially if you’re read the rest of this post, but there’s obviously a reason people keep going back time and again!!  And there’s a certain bonding that happens after you go through experiences like this with people- nobody else could quite understand.

I had ‘baggsied’ probably a Scottish way of saying reserved or ‘shotgunned’ my spot by leaving half my gear/blankets etc in the temple after Kambo, partly because i didn’t have the strength to take it back and partly because there wasn’t much point and it was a good place near the Shamans again.. But someone wanted my spot so he could sit next to his mate and I let him have it, my plan foiled. A little pissed off but trusting there was a good reason for it, I found a spot, unfortunately it was near the door and tonight was the coldest of all, but it was next to my burping buddy, and we were in for another night of synchronised burping and purging, I’m supposed to be sitting here.

I’m super layered up again, but it feels like I could have on 20 layers and still be cold tonight, plus maybe because I’m so tired and feeling so fragile it makes me less able to cope, in general.

I decide i’ll do as much as I can, it’s my last chance.

This time we go up to the Shamans individually, I wonder why it’s different each time, but I assume there’s higher purpose.

This time it’s a different style of glass, this is like a double shot glass. Umm… ok…

I down it and take my seat.

I sit up waiting…

What will tonight bring? I’ve heard stories of others having their whole lives flashing before their eyes, past lives, crazy journeys and I kind of feel I’ve missed all that, it’s been intense physically but not necessarily emotionally…

The purging starts, it’s more intense than the previous two nights, I cling to my bucket. It feels like the edge of the universe again, a nice comfort and at least one benefit of putting myself through this.

It’s so cold. My bones feel the chill.

More purging…

I think it’s finally over, ok I’ve got to take another cup, i did 3 last time after all, I consider it. No one else seems to be going up like last time. I decide to lie down for a quick break and to regroup some strength.  Then I’ll get one for sure.

I lie down and the journeying begins… it feels a bit like a roller coaster, falling in and out of visions, but i feel neutral, no emotions. I vaguely remember thinking ‘oh yeah, that makes sense’ and getting some ‘ah has’ but i basically have NO idea or memory of anything, except one flash of a baby in a high chair (i wasn’t not sure if it was me or my ‘future’ baby) and it went on for hours…

I didn’t sleep, but the next thing I knew was a Shaman shaking me telling me i need to get up. I have no energy or will to move from my spot, even though i’m still cold.

I can still hear someone purging and wonder how many glasses they must have had, grateful that at least it’s not me.

The first bus has gone already, but i’m not ready or able to leave just yet.

We sit round the fire in silence, taking it all in and saying goodbye to the stunning mountains.  

A few people are still out of it, I ask how many cups they had, just one, i’m told, I can’t quite wrap my head around that, but then I’m told, that especially after the Kambo, the Shamans gave us one strong dose and set the intention that we’d all just need one cup that night. Ahh phew, I feel better and stop judging myself for my lack of medicine taking.  Clearly all my self judgement hasn’t completely disappeared! I still have more work to do!

Back at the ranch, we’re all moving very slowly, but my appetite is back and there seems like nothing better than bread, eggs, avocado and tomato. It’s again the best thing I’ve ever had. I’m glad to be appreciating the simple things in life.

We have a special guest coming to the retreat this morning to help us integrate, only about 8 of us show up, the rest are in bed, but he’s a Master and been doing this work for 40 years, I don’t want to miss it or be rude and no one shows up, he’s talking in Spanish and they’re translating, I’m mortified but I can’t stay awake, my head starts to nod and there’s nothing i can do, I’m fighting it hard, it’s such a small circle. Ahh…then the guy opposite starts the head nod too and then another girl and another…two people walk out…we’re all falling asleep on this guy…I pretty much miss the second hour, but buy his book as an apology, and to catch up on what i missed.

As exhausted as I am, I have my eye on some things in the markets and decide to go on one last trip before we leave the next day.   

Cusco, Integration & Learnings

We wrap up the retreat with way too many goodbyes, it’s felt like forever, but also way too short. I haven’t really been online in 10 days and and it think that helped!

We take a shuttle to Cusco, it’s been 10 years since my last visit, but I’m impressed how well i remember it, the Sacsayhuaman or ‘sexy woman’ ruins, the square etc… nothing has changed, except a Starbucks and KFC in the main square!!  But i had forgotten how big it is, we’ve been in Pisac with a population of 10,000, and Cusco has almost 1/2 million and is by far the biggest city in the Sacred Valley.

I get settled into my hotel and go for a quick explore, I find more markets…with the funkiest shoes, I didn’t see them in Pisac, so I got me a pair of patterned Andean hi-tops (i’m wearing them right now), a smaller pair and some suede boots, I’m obsessed, I’ve never seen anything like them, i literally left my old boots in the shop.

I’ve arranged to meet some of the girls from retreat for dinner and a few other friends who’re in town for dinner, they’re struggling with altitude sickness so only just make it.

As one of them said ‘Cusco is popping’ it’s so busy, full of well heeled tourists, mainly a fair bit older, and a younger scruffy crowd. I briefly wonder if I could actually live here.

I’m up again at 5am, this time, for my flight, mixed feelings, ready to get back to reality but dreading it at the same time.

30 hours later I arrive back in Sydney, I’m determined to stay up all day to try and skip jet lag, i go out for brekkie in Bondi with my friend that picked me up from the airport, then we have a second brekkie, then go for green juice, then a burrito…lol…a full day culinary tour of Sydney’s Eastern Suburbs…I’m full but it’s nice to be back and eating normal food again.

Staying up all day does me no good and I’m wide awake at 2.30am for the next 5 days!

I was feeling kind of weird all week, struggling to concentrate and work. Resisting my emails and messages although i knew I needed to get through them. It all felt kind of unimportant and banal after what i’d been through. I also was feeling super ungrounded, flying can do that to you, never mind 10 days of ‘sacred medicine’.

The latest sensation has been feeling like a bit of an alien in my body and trying to leave it…but i actually think the opposite is true (and so my mentor tells me) I’m probably feeling ultra human and reintegrating into my body. It’s just new and I’m not used to it.

The other thing that was happening was that I was feeling a bit lost, I had gone to Peru, expecting a lightening bolt of inspiration and clarity to strike. To show me my life’s work and ultimate truth, to face every fear and be completely healed of all issues and blocks I had, to know exactly what the rest of my year will look like. I had HUGE expectations of Peru and Aya.

I realised I had been waiting for months for this trip, putting off decisions, expecting everything to change and not even allowing myself to sit and think, i thought it was a waste of time because I was expecting it to give me all the answers. Respecting the medicine is super important, but I had given my power away to it…

Hahaha…oh the naivety!

You don’t get it if you put that kind of expectation on something. I felt like I was in the same place as I’d started and I was kind of frustrated! But that was the whole point!

I had something else to learn. If you try and get too much from something, sometimes you get nothing-until you get the learning that is.  

I had to take my power and responsibility back.

The ONLY place I can get all the answers is within. I have all the answers already.

It would be like working with a coach for 3 months and expecting to be given all the answers and your direction and be completely healed for life and have no more issues to work on ever! Haha. (that’s unrealistic BTW!)

Funnily enough since this ah-ha, I’ve gotten more clarity and breakthroughs than I did the whole trip!

I’ve already decided i’ll be doing more Aya in the next few months, an opportunity has come up that will only take a little tweaking of my plans to make, but I’ll be going into it with NO expectations, intentions sure, but I won’t put my life on hold for the next two months waiting for a magical download of clarity or direction. I know I’m on track already. I need to stop doubting myself and just go for it. Fully.

And like I tell my clients, it will always evolve we just have to roll with it.

The adventures will continue, but the Peru chapter has closed for now, by the time you read this I’ll be in Thailand…

To be continued…

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(Note: We help female entrepreneurs bust through their blocks and upper limits to create a BIG impact, biz and life they love, through personal and spiritual development,  Via group programs, live events,  Masterminds and very limited 1:1 coaching. We are not Shamans and/or Sacred plant advisers.)

BIG Love,

Jo x

 

[DISCLAIMER None of this information is suggesting that you should try Ayahuasca, Kambo, San Pedro, hape or any other type of plant medicine, or that I endorse it in ANY WAY or that I think it’s the only way to develop personally or spiritually. It’s risky and dangerous, ESPECIALLY if you just book on the internet, don’t know the Shamans and/or they even call themselves Shamans. My crew wouldn’t trust anyone doing this in the US or even many in Peru itself, some of the Shamans have been bought off and there is some dodgy stuff going on, DON’T work with anyone with less than 10 YEARS experience, I am also not available to make any recommendations as it’s not my place to do so, I am NOT an expert or a Shaman…PLEASE be VERY careful and considerate to the plant and the traditional people!!! All I share is MY journey and MY experience, MY decisions, because I want to be open with you about what’s really going on in MY world, we’re all on our own journeys! Xx]

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16 Signs You’re A Lightworker

It’s taken me awhile to even identify with this term, it was one of those I used for ‘other people’ but when you get referred to it enough then it starts to sink in a little…

Not all lightworkers are online entrepreneurs or coaches or even healers, but I believe they have all been sent to help the planet raise its frequency and transition into the 5th dimension, e.g. amazing teachers or doctors.

So take this test and let me know if you might be one too!

1) You a have a deep knowing there is more to life.

Maybe, you’ve been seeking something and didn’t even know what it was, maybe you’re an adventurer and traveled the globe looking for answers. (That’s what i did!).

Since I was a little girl I’ve been asking the questions: What’s the meaning of life? Surely there must be more than this?

2) You are very aware of energies and need time alone to recharge.

While I love people and can be the life of the party, I crave and need long stretches of time on my own to rest and get my energy back up. Maybe you just can’t stand crowds or parties anymore, the energies are way too intense and you feel like you ‘take stuff on’.

I know a lot of people who felt that collective pain during the recent elections.

3) You see the numbers 11.11 and 111 often.

These are signs from the angels that you’re awakening and they’re with you. I love when I see this as it makes me smile and I feel a sense of peace and reassurance that i’m on the right track and looked after.

4) You feel like you have a BIG mission in life to fulfill.

There’s something in your body that’s stirring, it’s that little buzz in the pit or your stomach or maybe in the middle of your chest that’s calling you to do something big, really BIG…you feel like you have a message to share, and there are people that need to hear it. It’s starting to nudge you in a different direction, you feel called to learn certain things or go to certain places and start to express true self through creative pursuits like writing or art.

5) You’ve often felt alone or that you don’t fit in- even with your family.

I’ve always felt a bit different. Maybe I always knew it, maybe other people even sensed it too. You might even want to rebel against society and authority. I’ll admit sometimes I don’t feel like ‘normal people’ rules apply to me! And I HATE paper work and being told what to do!

6) You seem to be the person everyone comes to for advice and to feel better. 

You’re often the person people come to for advice, you’re always suggesting great books or resources or healers or events. Giving advice comes naturally to you.

7) You might feel drawn to help and heal people.

As a natural empath and intuitive you might feel like you just ‘know’ how to help. It’s like you remember this stuff…

8) You sense you have psychic or mediumship abilities.

You can feel or sense, hear or even see entities. Maybe you had a strong connection as a child but then shut it down. Maybe you just ‘know’ stuff about people or get premonitions or can talk to those who have passed.

So many people have this ability but either shut it down or never tell anyone as they’re embarrassed or worried they’d think they were crazy. (when I was about 14years old, I had a bedroom full of entities, i was fully awake and talked to them calmly and sent them into the light, I had no idea what was happening, and I didn’t freak out, but I do remember my Mum taking me to the doctor, thinking I’d lost my mind!)

9) You hate conflict and want everyone to just get along.

You just can’t understand violence or war, you feel it strongly and it hurts your soul to see others in pain. You probably hate conflict too.

10) You’re obsessed with all things ‘Woo woo’. 

You are reading and consuming vast amounts of knowledge about all things esoteric, it’s like you finally have found something that resonates and you can’t get enough. I’m personally obsessed with all things spiritual, and I listen to at least 1-2 books a week and constantly hooked into articles and trainings. I love anything that’s been written as a ‘transmission’, it feels the most true to me. I’m also taking course after course on the subject, learning the Akashic Records and now my Shamanic training just fill me up.

11) You’d rather stay home on a Saturday night with your crystals, and tarot cards than be seen dead in a nightclub!

Lol, ok this might not be necessary to be a lightworker and fun is still important, but the old things you used to love and the groups you spent time with, now just seem less important or banal. Perhaps you just feel like you have nothing in common with them any more, it’s not that they’re not still amazing lovely people, but it’s harder to connect. Plus I’m not short of something to say, but I went to a BBQ of old friends and literally had nothing to say, then a friend ran up to me and said, hey this guy is an entrepreneur and into all that weird stuff you are….we chatted non-stop for the next few hours…

12) There are loads of synchronicities that seem to happen around you, it’s almost like you’re being directed towards something.

More and more these synchronicities start happening, in the past you’d have brushed them off as a coincidence, but they’re just happening too often now. Like you hear the name of a book 3 times in a few days, and decide to read it and it was the exact thing you needed. Or you walk into cafe and that person you were just thinking about is sitting there.

I love stories about this…and could talk about them all day…like the time I was on a rock in the jungle on an island off Brazil and said hi to a friend I’d met in New Zealand, or how my next coach or healer is literally delivered to me exactly when I need them, or like last week when I searched FB for an old school friend, (that I hadn’t seen or thought of in 20yrs) couldn’t find them and then my sister messaged me to tell me she was moving to Sydney and I we should meet up.

13) People often tell you that you inspire them!

You’re just doing your thing, nothing special, but yet people love it and feel inspired to do more. One of my key life goals I come back to is to inspire, and I often get told that, if one thing I do or post lights a fire in someone that lights me up!

14) Ultimately you know the ‘Universe has your back!”

It’s a bit cheesy, but you feel like you’ll always be protected and have all you need. When you look back you realise this has always been true.

It makes it easier to take risks, and you have a deep trust in your journey. Just last week a friend and i were talking to a ‘non-woo’ person, she asked about fear about putting ourselves out there or even the risk of traveling and terrorism. We both answered that we felt we were here for a big purpose and were strangely protected, as we had work to do on this planet. This isn’t an ego thing, just a deep sense of purpose and trust.

I remember when I was about 20 years old (after reading a Nostradamus article about a 25 year period of war and destruction that was upon the world) and making a vow to myself that I’d never let fear stop me from going on adventures, if I thought too much I’d never leave the house!

15) You are a powerful manifestor.

You always manage to manifest exactly what you need and want. Sometimes it even shocks or scares you how powerful you actually are, when you make it down to the dollar or it comes at the last minute, but you just wish you could apply it to some bigger things and not wait until the 11th hour for a miracle.

16) You believe (or are starting to believe) in angels and guides. 

You love your tarot cards, and have either met or talk to your angels and guides. You call on them when you need them, and even when you don’t. You feel like you have extra energy and support with you at all times. You’ve been asking for signs and getting them. You also wonder if it’s crazy and maybe haven’t actually told anyone you do this.

This is fairly new and mind expanding for me, I went to a workshop last year and the stories just blew my mind, I now often talk to them, ask for help and guidance and trust what comes through. I also see evidence everywhere I go.

Start small by tasking for a sign or even a parking space. I did this last week and when i pulled into the exact space I laughed and thanked my guides. They can only help you if you ask!

Jo x

P.S. I have a business building program designed for lightworkers like you, to help you get super clear on your unique message and get it out into the world. It’s more important now than ever before and if this is your purpose I want to help you make it a reality.

I believe this is bigger than you and me. Book a chat I’ll help you get clear on your next steps and see if this would be a great fit for you. It’s your time now!

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Biz Tips – Part Five

Hi,

How are you?

There’s a lot of talk about ‘authenticity’ in this industry, but i think there’s ONE element that stops people actually getting there and nobody is talking about it.

Let me know if you agree with this 77 second video!

Big love,
Jo x

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P.S. I have opened my diary for some calls over the next few weeks, and I’d love to speak with you so schedule below for your FREE Business Breakthrough call today where in 45-minutes, I’ll help you get TOTAL clarity over what you want your business to look like and the EXACT steps to take to achieve your goals. 🙂 CLICK HERE TO BOOK
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Biz Tips – Part Four

Hi ,

How are you? Are you enjoying these short videos?

There isn’t much to say about this one except that it’s totally counterintuitive for most people but it’s perfect for a Friday!! 😉

Have a wonderful weekend!

Big love,
Jo x

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P.S. I have opened my diary for some calls over the next few weeks, and I’d love to speak with you so schedule below for your FREE Business Breakthrough call today where in 45-minutes, I’ll help you get TOTAL clarity over what you want your business to look like and the EXACT steps to take to achieve your goals. 🙂 CLICK HERE TO BOOK
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Biz Tips – Part Three

Hi,

How are you?

Have you got a habit of setting goals and NEVER meeting them? This ONE key thing might be the answer! The video is only 67 seconds!

Let me know what you think!? I much prefer this set up!

Big love,
Jo x

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Biz Tips – Part Two

Hi,

How are you?

I had a call with someone this week who was at the end of her coping ability and burst into tears, she was burnt out AGAIN!!

I see this all the time, I’ve been there, and it can be a huge Money Block, as we tend to retreat and don’t want to bring in more clients. So today in Biz Tip #2, I share the ONE BEST TIP I’ve ever been given, BUT I needed to hear this message for nearly 9 months until it actually clicked- and guess what, that’s when my business popped too- the first time I applied it to an opt-in I had 600 downloads overnight!

Let me know what you think!?

Big love,
Jo x

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Biz Tips – Part One

Hi,

You might know that being visible has been a bit of a challenge for me, but it’s definitely getting easier every time I do it, I hired a cool video crew and now I’m excited to present the first of a series of short (under 2 mins) Biz tips…

Let me know what you think!?

Big love,

Jo x

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Lessons from Crossfit

Hi,

Qu: How do you know if someone does Crossfit? A: They’ll tell you! lol

So Yes, you’ve guessed it, I’ve started going to Crossfit, I’m alternating it with some Reformer Pilates and loving the difference I’m already seeing, but it’s not all about the physical…

But first let me tell you how it all started, I moved into my new and amazing beach pad, and googled the nearest gym, it was a Crossfit place 5 mins walk away, I groaned….Nooooo….I’ve always seen people doing it but resisted it like crazy- I didn’t want to end up all butch and have a Crossfit body plus it looks crazy intense and for someone trying to get into my Feminine- might not be the best option….BUT….I filled out the online form and thought I’d try a sample class. 5 mins later I get a call from my old Personal Trainer from years ago…’Hey it’s Jacob, did I tell you I bought a Crossfit gym?’ Ahhh, shit…no getting out of it now…I booked in to go and get an introduction… #notacoincidence

I’m not going to lie, since I started my biz, I’ve not been working out like I used to and then since I became a digital nomad, my routine hasn’t really had a chance, the odd yoga class in a new city and hitting up the odd hotel gym doesn’t really count in six months and I was really starting to notice it!

But I went along anyway and signed up for some private sessions with Jacob to ease myself in gently- and learn the lingo- it’s like another language!

Day 1 – ‘So when was the last time you did a handstand?’ Erm, when I was 12 years old!

My first reaction was ‘I can’t’, but then I decided how could I know if I didn’t try…I took a deep breath and went for it and it was actually much easier than I thought….old muscle memory maybe? Who knows…but if I’d stood there for another 5 mins contemplating how hard it was going to be- I’d probably not have tried.

Lesson: Nothing is as hard as you think- and the longer you think about it, it won’t get any easier!

Day 2 – We’re going to do some, rings…you know those gymnastic rings they hang from in the Olympics? Yeah those! – Great! 🙂

In the past, I might have complained but I’ve decided, I’d just try everything he threw at me.

Lesson: Complaining will get you nowhere!

Day 3 – Ok so give me 15 Burpees…..Burpees? I HATE Burpees- Are they essential??

New mantra….I LOVE Burpees, I LOVE Burpees, I LOVE Burpees, I LOVE Burpees,

Honestly, I think they’re getting easier!!

Lesson: What you tell yourself works!

Day 4 – We’re going to do deadlifts!

In my head – ‘ahh shit I hate those’ -(I worry about my back), but after a few I felt strong and more capable than I had in a long time. I felt unstoppable the rest of the day.

Lesson: Strong Body – Strong Mind

Day 5 – I joined the rest of the squad for a group class

Ok so I’m not going to lie I have a competitive side…I used to be super fit, easily lifting the most in a Body Pump class, one of the fastest sprinters in my Rugby team, I beat boys when I cycled competitively – my thighs are built for power!! 😉 But because it’s been so long I was obviously the weakest in the class, I had to put my ego to one side and even ask for help!

Lesson: Don’t let your ego get in the way of starting, everyone has to start somewhere and ask for help if you need it!

Did you know exercise dramatically increases brain performance and Flow? I’ve been much more focused and on fire since I started…What do you love to do to get more exercise into your life?

BIG love,
Jo x

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Green juice, Rockstar parks, and a month’s rain in an hour!

Hi,

So my friend was sick today and I offered to go round with juice and breakfast, it seemed like a great plan, I’d been doing video interviews since 6am (which means getting up at 5am to get dolled up- the hustle is real!) and I was ready for a break!

I decided on my way to stop in at the Post office first to pick up some books (of the Bestselling authors on my interview series!) and as I got closer the rain got heavier, I decided I’d get a ‘Rockstar park’ (basically pulling up to a parking place straight outside the door). BOOM. Manifestation Check. 🙂

Then it was raining so hard, I decided to drive to the juice bar, I decided I wanted another ‘Rockstar park’, it’s not far, I’d never normally do that, but it was raining so hard- I later found out it was a month’s worth of rain falling in an hour!! As I turned the corner I spotted a space, but it was still about block from the juice bar, and the words ‘it’s good enough- I probably can’t be that lucky twice in a row‘ ran through my head, I hit the indicators, and then suddenly realised I had switched on my manifestation- I changed my goals, I settled for ‘good enough’ (one of my Dad’s favourite sayings- but I wasn’t going to settle for that) so I canceled the indicator and continued down to the juice place, and just as I got there I thought I saw my parking space, a car with lights on, but no….it was a car taking MY PARKING PLACE!! It was the space that would have been mine, if I’d stayed focused on my manifestation and not tried to settle for ‘Good enough’!!! I went round the block again, no luck, I was still processing how ridiculous this all was, I went round again and finally said the words, ‘God is never late’, I drove down and a van pulled out and gave me my ‘Rockstar park’. BOOM. Manifestation Check. 🙂

I ordered a green juice, a carrot/orange juice and 2 breakfasts and some chocolate strawberries, as a little treat, Along with my bag and umbrella, plus the pouring rain, I had my hands full- I joked to the girl, ‘now to get into the car without spilling this‘ (the thought crossed my mind that I was manifesting too well and it might happen!)…..YOUR WORDS HAVE POWER….despite the rain, I carefully got in the car, and guess what, the green juice tipped over….NOOOOOOOO…….luckily the lid stayed on- and it went on me and my seat a little, but it wasn’t a complete disaster…I couldn’t be mad as I KNEW in that moment I’d literally created it. It was a little lesson- The Universe having a little joke on me!

I manage to get to my friend’s house and get out of the car and into the house with no more mishaps, apart from being soaked.

Just a typical morning in Sydney! Lol

Lessons of the day- 1) DON’T SWITCH YOUR GOALS AND SETTLE FOR ‘GOOD ENOUGH’ 2) YOUR WORDS HAVE POWER

Big love,
Jo x

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I Died A Little This Weekend…

Hi,

So you know I’m a BIG fan of personal development and take it pretty seriously. I feel like I have to go first for my community and clients. Almost like a crash-test dummy!! But YOU CAN ONLY TAKE YOUR CLIENTS AS DEEP AS YOU HAVE GONE YOURSELF! I want to serve at a super high level. So I go deep!

But I don’t always exactly plan this stuff- sometimes- I know it’s coming so plan for it, e.g. I’m off to Peru at the end of May!! But sometimes it’s more unexpected….

So this weekend I headed off for a retreat in the mountains that I thought was about meditation, astrology and chakra balancing….But the leader’s introduction started with:

‘Thank-you for having the courage to be here, if the energy gets too intense and you feel the need to bolt for the door please let me know first, if you need help please raise your hand. Oh and don’t hurt yourself or anyone else, or you’ll be immediately asked to leave’.

Um…we’re not just meditating??

Then he said a lot of people talk about ‘Transformation’ they throw the word around like it’s nothing- BUT TO TRULY TRANSFORM- SOMETHING HAS TO DIE!!

Um…part of me has to die this weekend? Shit!

But, as always, I trust in the Universe and a power higher than me, knew I had to be in that room!

The first day was intense to say the least, I had breakdowns and breakthroughs – I even ventured into the centre of the circle on my own, to have a session in front of everyone! It was confronting and scary – talk about being VISIBLE- being my most vulnerable in front of a room of strangers!

I was shocked at what was STILL inside me, something I’d never even considered- but this work never ends it’s a life long journey…

The second day was less intense for me, I had a massive vision for my future business (which is pretty freaking cool- BUT I also got a warning- I need to embody that work before i can teach it- hint- my Shamanism studies start next week!) and some other awarenesses, but there was something that didn’t want to release, I got frustrated as wanted to make the most of my opportunity, and I nearly left at the lunch break- but one of my patterns is to run when it gets uncomfortable (having lived all over the world its funny to look back on why I probably did that!) but it shows me there’s still MORE room to do more work…

I don’t think I’d do this work if it was just for me, it’s uncomfortable and takes you to places you didn’t know existed, but I feel it’s for a higher collective.

We healed part of the planet in that room on the weekend. We healed parts of the Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine.

We raised our consciousness. We raised the frequency of the planet.

Are you willing to let a little bit of you die to transform? It doesn’t have to be as dramatic as my weekend- I know that’s not for everyone, but what could you maybe let go!? Come over to the Facebook group and let us know – if you’re brave enough! 😉

Big love,
Jo x <3 <3 x

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10 Ways You Might Be Giving Your Power (And Money) away!

Have you ever played down your success or achievements to make other people feel better?

Have you set your goals and sights smaller than you truly want because you’re worried about what people might think if you actually told them your secret dreams? Worried they might think you’re crazy- or tell you it’s not possible?

Do you deflect praise or compliments? With excuses like;

Compliment: ‘I love your shirt’
Response: “oh this old thing?’ or ‘i got it in the sale’ or ‘it’s actually got a hole in it’,
Compliment: ‘You look great, have you lost weight?’
Response: ‘No, i’ve actually gained a few pounds’
Compliment: ‘Your hair looks great’
Response: ‘Actually it needs a cut.’

WTF? Can’t we just say ‘oh Thanks’ and smile…how hard is that…

But the truth is …we fear claiming our true power, as we fear who we really are.

Power demands responsibility.

Power can be scary.

What if people don’t like me or can’t handle it when I claim my power?
Are you ready to claim your authentic power? Check the list below and make sure you stop giving it away!

1. Making excuses– We all do it, and I have heard them ALL! Often at the moment of decision making about making an investment in yourself, or when things are about to change.

‘I don’t have the money’, ‘Oh i’d have finished it, if I had enough time’, ‘I couldn’t because of the school holidays’, ‘my laptop crashed’, ‘i moved house’, ‘i’ll start next month’,

It’s not very empowering or sexy to not take responsibility for your actions.

2. Blaming others or complaining – This is victimhood, and I’d guess no one really wants to identify as a victim. I thought I was a strong, independent, capable woman- and I was, but I was also blaming others for my lack of progress, I blamed my team, my coach, my family, my friends.

They aren’t dedicated enough, fast enough, efficient enough. They aren’t good enough, they gave me bad advice, they don’t get it, they aren’t high vibe. As soon as I dropped this story, everything shifted.

I once had a former client, months after our coaching agreement had finished, blame me that she wasn’t sticking to her morning routine!!! WTF?! When I suggested that was her responsibility, she didn’t appreciate it!

When you take FULL responsibility for your results and actions you reclaim your power.

3. Not meditating – The ego loves drama and addictions, and wants to avoid stillness at all costs. It fears if you stop for a moment you will actually feel your emotions or worse actually move towards love.

4. Waiting to be rescued (or discovered?)– Um sorry to break it to you, the only person that can reuse you is you. I was waiting for someone to come along and make it all better, I actually paid people to help me, but it still didn’t work. The buck stopped with me.

I had a client who was just doing the bear minimum in her business, she was ‘kind of’ showing up but not really at all, when we went deeper, she admitted that she was waiting for her big break and to be discovered- she was banking on someone seeing her potential and betting on her- while it’s always a possibility, it can’t be your plan!! Bet on yourself first!

5. Procrastinating– You can only teach what you need to learn! 😉 Allowing tasks (and the meaning you give them) to create such an incredible hold over us, is not healthy. We are only given what we can handle and there is always a way to figure it out, it’s rarely rocket science. Plus the feelings of accomplishment and wellbeing you can get from completing the task, surely outweigh the benefits of delaying them. But yet it seems to be the No.1 issue for entrepreneurs. What would you do if you knew you couldn’t fail? For me the underlying issue is often Fear of Rejection, but I’m so much better than i used to be, and I know if I don’t ask I don’t get.

6. Not doing your taxes – Ekk, I’ve been here- as a former Chartered Accountant, I should have had no excuses in this department but I had convinced myself I was avoiding my taxes, as I was so over my corporate job and needed a break from that work. In truth, it was a deflection of my power. I was giving it energy subconsciously, allowing it to worry me, and even started to worry if I could ever sort it out. The power and threat it held over was immense, and when i decided to look it straight in the face, not only did I regain my power but it wasn’t nearly as bad as I thought it would be!!

7. Holding onto weight – Um yeah, I’ll put up my hand to this one too. By staying big – I could stay small….if you know what i mean? Another beautiful excuse to not do things; my weight kept me safe, meant it was ok to hide, not have that photoshoot or delay those videos. or even not get into that relationship. This is a huge part of my journey I’m still working on, but it’s getting easier. Ask yourself; what do I gain from holding on to this weight?

8. Not asking for help or delegating – Thinking you can do it all yourself is the biggest trap that will keep you small. You have to learn to release the tight grip on control and let go of the tasks that are not in your Zone of genius.

9. Not journaling or doing your mindset practice– I believe almost anyone reading this will at some level know that journaling, visualising the future and mindset work are the key foundations to growth and success. So why are so many not doing this daily? I think there are a few reasons; 1) they know how effective it is and actually fear the change or the success it might bring. 2) they’re not convinced it will actually work 3) it feels like hard work, a task and they don’t think they have time for. It actually speeds up results, so it’s time to find the time! 🙂

10. Staying busy– can be a form of avoidance. Avoiding our feelings and ignoring the signs that things need to change. Staying busy, doing all those firefighting tasks, allows us to avoid doing the actual work that grows our business. It’s a beautiful excuse, but it’s more about not wanting to take the time to get stuck into the meaningful tasks. Say No more, prioritise and delegate to move forward.

What are you willing to let go of or start doing to reclaim your power today?

Big love
Jo x <3 <3 x

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So this might be a bit controversial….[Plus 2 weeks until TEE LIVE!]

I’m going to say something you might not agree with….but hear me out….

Your mentor too far ahead of you! What? Huh?

Surely my mentor should have everything I ever wanted in life?

Shouldn’t my mentor should be a best-selling author?

I think it’s ok that Tony Robbins is my mentor!

Ok yes, Tony is amazing and I love him too…but he’s not my perfect mentor!

He’s too far ahead of me!

To get the most out of your mentor you need to model their behaviour.

Modelling is an NLP strategy, the process of recreating excellence. We can model any human behavior by mastering the beliefs, the physiology and the specific thought processes (that is the strategies) that underlie the skill or behavior.

It is about achieving an outcome by studying how someone else goes about it.

But by recreating Tony’s strategies, I might be missing out some crucial steps, he’s so far ahead of me, not all of his strategies are going to be relevant for me.

If your coach is too far ahead, they may have forgotten some of the things they went though and their lessons are buried deep in the business archives.

Or times have changed so much that the things they did in year 3 of their business are totally irrelevant in today’s marketplace. Tony wasn’t snapchatting in 1986!

Of course there are some core principles to learn and i’ve learned a huge amount from him.

But by learning from someone who is a few steps ahead of you, you get the benefit of their recent experience in the marketplace, what’s working- and NOT working.

My coach has recently hosted a 3 Day live event, it wasn’t his first, but it also wasn’t his 1000th. His learnings are super relevant for me, what worked and what didn’t.

He’s shared his strategies and contacts and will even be attending mine.

Sometimes you’ll reach the same level as your coach or even surpas them (if they’re not growing as fast as you), then it’s time to find a new one who’s just done what you want to do next.

We have to keep learning and growing, I have made lots of mistakes and love to share the things that have worked for me and things that haven’t with my private clients, I can laugh at them (mostly!) now.

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Hey Joanna!

Relax Mum….no i haven’t had any plastic surgery, (to date, anyway, never say never!), but my friend, who i’ve known for 5 years, didn’t recognise me the other day!!
I walked into a cafe in Sydney to get some lunch and do some work, they have great wifi, and three of my friends were sitting having a coffee, and one said she had a double take to see if it was actually me!
I haven’t seen her in a few months, we both travel a lot, but nothing has really changed, to my annoyance i haven’t lost any weight, or had a haircut, or even dyed my hair, I haven’t changed my wardrobe or the clothes i wear….so why didn’t she recognize me?
I then went over to the bar to order my coffee and a salad and the guy came back with a strawberry on a skewer and told me it was his heart as I was so beautiful, and would i mind just staying to talk to him all afternoon? (THAT HAS NEVER HAPPENED TO ME BEFORE), He was about 10 years younger than me and I politely told him I had work to do and got my laptop out, something has changed but I still didn’t know what it was…
Well it’s something even I noticed, but then wondered if it was just me and dismissed it….
I kept thinking about it and then remembered someone else had recently told me i looked different too, something in my eyes…
The thing that did change is that something has shifted inside me, I had changed so dramatically inside that it was showing on the outside, I’d had an emotional facelift!!!!

A what? Yes a kind of spiritual facelift!! I didn’t realize until I was listening to a book called Psyco-Cybernetics, written by a plastic surgeon, and he talks about, how someone can look 10 years younger just by letting go of the baggage that wears us down, his studies can from noticing that his surgery could either release someone to become who they really are, or the same surgery changes nothing…
Scar tissue builds up around an old wound to protect that area from being hurt again, and we do the same thing emotionally, when something happens we put up our defenses to stop the same things happening again. I’ve definitely done this in relationships, having been hurt, i’ve put up barriers to stop it ever happening again. A plastic surgeon can remove the scar tissue and his work doesn’t allow the scarring as he removes a little of the skin beneath it to reduce the tension (this book is so interesting!), so the wound heals more cleanly, and it stops having to protect itself.
I guess the huge shifts I’ve been experiencing over the last few months has taken away the scar tissue and allowed me to heal, those shifts have changed me, lightened me up, and my face has changed, i almost don’t recognise myself, but yet I feel more me than ever before.
These changes don’t happen without work, I have been actively working on this stuff with my coach and other healers as I want to work through it as fast as possible, i know in theory we can’t speed it up, but i’m trying anyway!!
Challenging yourself to push out of your comfort zone, make big leaps brings up stuff you don’t even know you have. Sure I could stay in my safe little bubble and not take these leaps, but that’s boring to me now, when I know the amazing stuff on the other side!
One of the big things I’ve challenged myself to is The Entrepreneur Edge LIVE event, just planning it has pushed me, and I know it will be worth it. But it’s not for me, it’s for you, I want you to push your own comfort zone, and join me on the other side.

For all the event info click here www.teelalive.com
I am so excited and look forward to seeing you there,
Facelift here we come!!!
Jo xx

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Entrepreneurship can be lonely! And what to do about it!

 Digital PhotographyI felt it was really important to share this message, as I am sitting here alone in my office, having only spoken in person to the guy in the coffee shop today!  Entrepreneurship can be lonely!
If you’re anything like me, when you started your business you had a big dream and a beautiful vision, of flying round the world, living a laptop lifestyle and working from funky cafes with cute barristas by day (ok maybe that’s just me!) and meeting up with your awesome Biz besties for cocktails in the evening? Although anything would have been better than my office cubicle, this dream was the ultimate!
Unfortunately, when I started my business, the reality was a stark contrast, although I’d describe myself as an Extroverted introvert (I’m super chatty, thriving off company when i’m in it, if i’m feeling confident-sometimes i can be shy too, but I need copious amounts of alone time to recuperate), I generally loved the buzz of my office,  and it was the people that made going to work bearable, our morning coffee catch ups were the highlight of my day, we knew every detail of each others family life, love life, and how many pounds each of us had gained or lost that week! We spent so much time together, working long hours and weekends together, walking home together, we became almost like family, even texting and speaking to each other outside of work.
Then suddenly I was on my own, don’t get me wrong, running my own schedule was a dream, the ability to take long lunches and run errands whenever I wanted was amazing. But the only problem was I was the WORST BOSS I’D EVER HAD!! I was a task master, a critic and forced myself to work longer hours than I’d ever done in corporate, some days I didn’t even allow myself to leave the house- or get out of my pjs- I didn’t have time! I worked evenings and weekends and barely took a day off for the first 18 months of my business (I even worked through the holidays only taking Christmas Day off!).
And you can probably guess this didn’t do too much for my friendships, social or love life!
But to add to my crazy workaholic tendencies, I found that when I did spend time with my old ‘normal’ friends, we didn’t have as much to talk about anymore, we were taking different languages, they just didn’t ‘get it’. Plus I’m pretty sure I was as boring as hell as I had no gossip or man news to share as all I was doing was working, studying and working on my personal development (to become a better person and communicate better!) Ironic huh!
I know I’m not the only one that struggles with this one, many of my clients have experienced the same thing, I’ve even found this can be a huge money block; ‘What will people think of me if I suddenly have loads of money?’, ‘will they still like me for me?’, ‘do I have to dump all my old friends to make my business work?’ and I get it, what’s the point of making all this money if you have no one to share it with?
I even lost touch a bit with my family, I had less to talk about with them too, they didn’t ‘get it’ either, they asked ‘are you sure this is the right move?’, plus with timezones and my crazy schedule we spoke even less. I felt misunderstood and like I was always trying to explain myself.
There are lots of family money blocks too! When we are growing up we make a (silent, unconscious) vow to stay within our family tribe, we are also programmed with their money blueprints, so when you start to change and grow and change your mindset, sometimes family members can feel threatened. They subconsciously worry they’ll lose you, and often that fear can be expressed in negative unsupportive comments or judgements. They really only want the best for you and worry it won’t work out, they fear change and can’t see how it’ll work out.  Plus it’s sometimes hard enough convincing yourself this business is a good idea, never mind dealing with your families fears too!
And to top it off there’s the sibling factor….I once had a client tell me she ‘couldn’t possibly earn more money than her two big brothers’, I asked why, she said ‘it just wouldn’t be right!’
We play a role in our families, the sporty one, the smart one, the slim one, the broke one, the funny one, the baby, and changing that can upset the applecart! We don’t want to outshine our siblings and make them feel bad! Crazy huh?
Back to the story….to add to all this, shifting and changing, I hardly made any money for the first 6 months of my business….so all this hard work was achieving what felt like nothing but stress and I was beginning to wonder if my family was right after all!! Noooo!
Where was the fun? Was it even worth it? I was asking myself the same question!
I am incredibly grateful this hasn’t continued and I now have fun and make money!!
What was the answer? Well there were a few things;
1) I stopped judging others and making them wrong for not wanting to be an entrepreneur or talk about online marketing, spirituality or personal development!!
2) I stopped looking for validation from others and my family, they didn’t need to ‘get it’ and that was ok!
3) I started being kinder to myself, taking time out, exercising and treating myself to massages!
4) I started getting out of my pjs everyday! 🙂
5) For the money shift, I got some coaching on my own money blocks and everything changed.
6) But most importantly I started surrounding myself with others who did ‘get it’,  at the beginning it wasn’t a conscious choice, but I started spending more time with successful people with a similar mindset.
 
My mentor Tony Robbins says ‘Proximity is Power’. We are the sum of the 5 people we spend most time with.
Our income, health & fitness, relationships and even dress sense starts to align! (just look at old married couples who dress in ‘his and hers’ to see what I mean!)
I think this is why Facebook has become such a popular medium for work-from-home people, it makes us feel less lonely- BUT you can only get so much connection online.
When I started attending in-person courses, events, even local networking I met some incredible ‘like-minded’ people.
I joined an online program that had 4 overseas events in Paris, Los Angeles, Florence and Sydney.  I knew it was important to make an effort to be at every single one. The energy and inspiration i felt in these high-vibe locations was amazing, but it was the friendships, community and connections that were priceless. I’ve made life-long friendships with the most amazing women from all over the world.  We’d travel to these amazing locations together, stay in stunning hotels or rent huge stunning Airbnb homes in Paris and throw champagne parties!
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When that course ended I felt a bit lost again, these events had been the highlight of my business, so I flew to Miami to attend one of their weddings and then spend time with these ladies on South Beach before flying up to New York to attend yet another in person event. Here I mingled with industry influencers who have now become friends, mastermind buddies and affiliate partners for my programs and events, I have appeared on their podcasts and regularly contribute as a guest expert in their programs, and they have even agreed to speak at my upcoming event. None of this would have happened if I hadn’t put myself in those rooms.
The support I get from the people I’ve met in person is different from solely online. They know the real me (not that I’m that different online- but i’m much funnier (and better looking) in person!) ;), they support me and they champion me in a way no one else does.
You don’t always have to fly all over the world to make these connections, sometimes you can do it closer to home too.
My love of events has led me to create my own, I’ve now hosted events in Sydney, Miami (which went viral and sold out!) and New York and now I’m coming to Los Angeles and I’d love to invite you to join us. If any of this post resonates, I’m guessing you’d be a great fit to join our community. I believe we cn’t do this alone and have to come together to make a difference.  Click here for more info.   Look forward to meeting you in person!
Big love,
Jo xx
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Who do you idolise? And is it bad for business?

Hey!

How are you? Great I hope!

As I shared in my last email I have been listening to Gabby Bernstein’s book Sprit Junkie, and it got me thinking.

The premise of the book is about the self-love and miracles, but also how we have separated from love that fear takes over- the fear often shows up as ego.

She talks about how we create idols out of people, whether it’s a special love, a teacher, a celebrity, a friend or even ourselves!! (Me with the awesome Kimra Luna below)

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By doing that we believe they are better than us or that we are better than them and that is an illusion! Not you, you say? Have you ever thought you’re not as good as your mentor but you’re better than that homeless guy on the street? That is just your ego talking!

And if your ego is in charge, you’re shutting the door on miracles, flow and amazing opportunities- in life and business. Plus we can only become who be believe we are, and if we think we’re somehow inferior to our coach or mentor, it means it’s highly unlikely you’ll create better results!

When I was at an event last year a few interesting things happened….

I met a lady and we had been chatting and joking for a while over a glass of vino, and she said you know i have an admission to make: ‘Before this event I’d held you a a pedestal‘ I said: ‘What and now you don’t?‘ (LOL) She laughed; “Well no, not any more, I’ve realised you’re just a normal person’

At the same event we did an exercise where we had to write down the traits of three people we admired in business and the learning was that we also had those traits. It was a huge thing for me to realise, that if I could spot it, it was within me too. I WAS all those beautiful things I’d written about those other women. 

Then a crazy thing happened, TWO women in the room approached me afterwards and said I was one of their three people. I was shocked. I joked ‘what did you write?’ I secretly really wanted to know! What did they see in me that I couldn’t? 

Later that day I got a bit emotional on stage and cried– not unusual for this big ball of love, and I think that shattered any illusions they had!

I have idolised many people, more than I could ever put in an email. I’m beginning to see them as my equals and just as humans. When we connect back to this, compassion and love return.

No one is any better than you, we are all one, yes they may have a bigger bank account or as Oprah often says; she just has better shoes!

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Is there anyone you’re idolising? Can you let it go?

Gabby suggests telling them that and that’s what the lady above did beautifully, we laughed and we’re now good friends. If you can’t tell them, tell somebody. Your friends, anyone, get it out there in public and break the spell.

Tony Robbins, often says “I am not your Guru’ and he even has a movie out called that this summer! [He’s still my idol- for now- I’m trying to let it go] Oh and it doesn’t mean you can’t respect and admire them, but just be able to breathe and string a sentence together in their presence!

Big love,

Jo x

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I surrender!

Hey!

It’s been a Full Moon and the Winter or Summer Solstice depending which side of this amazing plant you’re on which is an unusual event.

It’s also an amazing time to let go of anything holding you back and set some new intentions. 

I was chatting to a friend today who mentioned that they had been praying really hard for something lately, and had handed over the outcome to God. (I have never really prayed or believed in it until recently (erm today!) and my opinion is being completely changed and opened up-again!) They had prayed : ‘If my time is better served helping people, and not worrying about this outcome, and if you want me to do that then please help me.’ Guess what, everything lined up to the $ and the day was saved! 

Then later this afternoon I was listening to the book Spirit Junkie by Gabby Bernstein, and she mentioned a prayer she said often to surrender to a higher power and allow her ego and fear to release and hand over the outcome to the divine (or whatever you want to call it). I rewound the recording to write down the prayer word for word. 

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This is where the story gets a little spookier…. I randomly had my copy of The Law of Divine Compensation by Marianne Williamson sitting next to me, i read it a year ago and I just pulled it off the shelf for a re-read while up in Byron Bay this week (my holiday reads used to be trashy fiction- oh how times have changed!). I decided to open it to a page I’d dog-eared the corner of and started to read….and guess what it quoted the EXACT prayer again. TWICE in about 2 mins!!! (The Prayer originally comes from A Course in Miracles which they both teach from.)

I said aloud, ‘alright, alright I get it, I need to surrender!!!’

I got the message….3 times in a day…

It wasn’t the first time I’d heard this, nor will it be the last, sometimes we need to hear a message a few times for it to sink in!

Then it got even spookier (i had already written this email and used the language above- this is an edit)….a few chapters on Gabby shares that at a point when she was looking for guidance she was drawn to a book, it turned out to by A Return to Love, by Marianne Williamson, and she opened the book to a page she had dog-eared!! (WTF!!!) And read a passage that she needed to hear. ‘Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. ‘We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world.’ 

Then just as i heard this message, I stopped in at a little heath bar to get a raw chocolate treat, and the guy serving started talking about life coaching, motivational speaking and the need to surrender-I kid you not, I smiled, told him it was my word of the day, and enjoyed my healthy desert!

When we hold on too hard to a desired outcome sometimes we take away the opportunity for miracles.

I’m open and available for miracles….I surrender, I surrender, I surrender! 

And the stunning prayer? Which is, in the words of Marianne; ‘The best way to summon in your true calling….’

‘Where would you have me go? What would you have me do? What would you have me say, and to whom?’

Is there something you could let go of? Are you holding on too tightly?

Let go, release it, trust and let me know if any magic happens!

I’d love to know your thoughts,

Big love,

Jo x

P.S. Want to join me by the pool? Keep reading….

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When was the last time you took time out from working in your business, and focused on working on yourself and your business?

Amazing things happen when you break your daily routine, and meet new people.

We’ll transform your money story, your limiting beliefs, your fears, your sabotaging behaviors, and really allow you to step up and play a BIGGER game.

For more details just click here as there are too many awesome things to put in an email, including a networking drinks soiree (complimentary!!), healthy choc sponsor and soooo much more….Plus it’s crazy cheap early bird pricing!!

Look forward to meeting you in person!!!!

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Can we please clear something up?

Ok so this has been niggling at me for a while…and I think it’s been making it even harder for the regular people like you and me to put ourselves out there! You can skip the words and watch the video at the bottom instead if you want! 🙂

Don’t get me wrong i’m all about keeping it real, but this word authenticity is being thrown around and people don’t really get it…more to come on this…

But people think being authentic means Livestreaming from bed, the bathroom, in their ratty old Pjs, or whatever other random ones i’ve seen recently. And i’m not judging it, it you feel cool doing that then go for it, if your audience responds to it then go for it BUT you don’t have to be in your yoga gear, with no make

up on and air your dirty laundry just to be authentic. It’s kind of missing the whole point. Plus it can also be brand suicide!!!

You can still be inauthentic in your Pjs on camera- if your heart is closed or you’re faking it, it really doesn’t matter what you’re wearing or doing. My whole life I’ve been trying to be someone or something I wasn’t mainly because i didn’t think the real me was good enough- just as I was, that’s the real journey…

If you feel more comfortable dressing up, making an effort and that’s your best version of yourself you want to show the world that’s ok too, it doesn’t mean you’re fake or unauthentic. I want my brand to be me, yes i’ll always have beautiful polished pictures (cos they’re fun and I love having them), yes I’ll do more professional video shoots, because I think they’re an important part of my business model, but I’ll also show the behind the scenes, not so perfect picture me too, because I’m comfortable doing it, if I didn’t though- i  think that’s ok too.

Your authenticity shines through in your words and actions, how you show up for your clients and most importantly yourself!

Do what feels good, getting a little uncomfortable is important as it’s never as bad as you think it’ll be!

Now my launch is over I have space to bring on 4* 1:1 clients in April before my prices go up, will you be one of them?

If this even makes you wonder what you could achieve with a coach, then it’s time to book in for a free chat and get all your questions answered! I promise it’s much easier than you think and I make it as much fun as possible. 🙂

Big love,

Jo x

 

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Struggling to find clarity?? The one question you need to ask yourself…

Happy Monday!

I have worked with many female entrepreneurs worldwide, one of the things I hear most is…

If I could just get clarity on…. my target market/offerings/niche/zone of genius… I would ….start my business/ launch my next program/ finish my website/quit my job….’

You get the picture, lack of clarity is touted as an excuse for not moving forward in business more often than almost anything else I hear. I’ve seen women use this an excuse for spinning their wheels for years!!!

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But It’s a nice soft way to sabotage yourself, it’s not as harsh as the truth; I’m procrastinating, I’m lazy, I’m scared, I’m in denial, I’m not really committed, I’m scared of what people will think, I’m terrified of failure or even success…

I believe clarity is within, but it is usually hiding behind fear. Fear underpins everything, it’s the No. 1 Money Block I see all the time.

But there’s good news, once you get past the fear, the clarity comes…ask yourself; If I did actually get clarity what might happen? I guarantee if you’re really honest the answers are not all positive…figuring that out and neutralizing it is the secret.

The other really cool trick is….just start something…it sounds ridiculously simple but you will very quickly get clarity from doing…that dream you had, it might not be as much fun if you actually try it, this is amazing as it stops you fantasizing about it for any longer than is really necessary. If i hadn’t just started and started out as a Health Coach originally, I would never be doing what I do now. I needed that experience and that learning to lead me to the business I currently have. Often people don’t start as they are afraid they aren’t as good as they hope they might be, they might actually discover the truth…but flip it, trying something and it doesn’t work out, is not failure but simply learning and speeding up your process so you can find your zone of genius, very often taking those first steps will lead you to exactly where you need to be. Go for it!

I love helping my clients figure out what that exact thing is that’s blocking the clarity (then getting rid of it for good!) and helping them get the confidence to move forward no matter what.

I have space to bring on 3 more 1:1 clients in April before my packages change and my prices go up, will you one of them?

If this even makes you wonder what you could achieve with a coach, then it’s time to book in for a free chat and get all your questions answered! I promise it’s much easier than you think and I make it as much fun as possible. 🙂

Big love,

Jo x

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Are you falling into one of these 5 traps? And all you need to get started in your biz!

I have worked with A LOT of women and (and a few men!) and I hear all of this- over and over again!

The good news is ….It’s not your fault – as this online world would make you believe it’s all true- but let’s take a moment and check in and see…have you ever said…
 

1. I can’t coach/work with people until I have my certificate/I’m not qualified enough/I feel like a fraud

2. I need a website/logo/biz name/photos/branding and all my biz details before I start

3. I need online marketing/Fb Ads etc to get clients

4. I need to figure out my niche/get clarity about my ideal client/packages/what I do, before I start

5. If I keep coaching for free i’ll eventually get paid clients!

 
I’m guessing at least one? Am I right?

 
Let’s simplify things so you can start to see clients and cash sooner…All you actually need to do is….

1. Know where your ideal clients might hang out

2. Be able to explain what you do

3. Invite for a phone chat/discovery call

4. Set up an online calendar/booking system

5. Know what to say on the phone (easy step by step instructions)

6. Know how to create a client relationship, (and not just be friends!!)

7. Exact language to use to present your coaching packages

8. Have a way to take payments

9. Oh and let go of a few money blocks while you’re at it!

 

Here are a few tips to get you started…

1. Make sure you get into the right mindset before the call, and then detach yourself from the result-people can smell desperation!

2. Be curious and ONLY if they are your ideal client and you have a solution -offer it, don’t harass or harang anyone into a decision that doesn’t feel good.

3. Timetrade is free you can get set up in mins and look super profesh!

4. Don’t coach on the call, get paid before you coach or they’ll see you as a friend. They need to want it more than you, let them come to you!

 

Still not sure then I’m here to help….I absolutely love all my clients and have space to bring on 4* 1:1 clients in April before my prices go up, will you one of them?

It’s time to book in for a free chat and get all your questions answered! I promise it’s much easier than you think and I make it as much fun as possible. 🙂

Big love,

Jo x

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